Today is a wonderful Throwback Thursday. I am re-blogging a post from my old blog, Writing My Dreams. This piece was originally posted on Thursday, August 30, 2012.
I love looking back over old posts and seeing where I was in my life, in my spiritual journey, and in my writing processes. I am always encouraged when I see growth and when I can assess what I have accomplished based on past expectations. Do you often self-reflect?
This post was a reflection of who I was as a person, and nicely coincides with the post that I wrote this Monday, entitled Inspired to Live. Enjoy!
THIS IS WHO I AM...
Today I received my daily scripture sent to me by a friend who receives them from Joel and Victoria Osteen. The message was based around the following thought process:
“I wish I had been true to who I was and not just lived to meet the expectations of others.”
This sentence alone made me start thinking about who I am. My husband challenges me to do this quite often, yet I don't. I understand it is vital to my growth as a person, therefore, when I do reflect on who I am I hope to improve myself as a result.
As children we look to please others, whether they are our parents, grandparents, siblings, cousins, educators, and friends. However, as we become older we become more individualized and begin to define who we are. Our actions, behaviors, and decisions reflect how we feel and who we see ourselves as. This is because we tend to shed that worry about what others think about us and begin to live life based on how we feel or what we think. However, I seemed to have grasped this concept at some later stage in life at the cost of much and to the detriment of relationships with those around me. It is important to look within ourselves to understand who we are and what makes us tick. Some of this may open other doors that we dare not enter...doors that lead to painful memories and hurt.
We quickly back out of that room and close that door because we don't want to deal with those feelings. But it is the only way to grow.
As I look within I know that I am a spiritual person whether I am at church or in quiet moments alone worshiping in His presence. I am emotional and I feel things on a deeper level than some.
The little girl within that many of us never lose, still holds on to some of the insecurities and self-consciousness she brought with us from childhood. And as a result this has led me to make some mistakes that I must learn from.
I am silly and goofy at times and although years have gone by and mistakes have been made I realize it is okay to laugh at myself and my mistakes sometimes. Rather than remain self-conscious I have learned to laugh with those laughing at me and point to my own flaws...thanks to that wonderful husband of mine.
In a crowd of people I am extremely shy just as a little kid looking for the familiar face. Yet, one on one, I have so much to say and won't quit talking.
I stand firm on what I believe in and won't back down...resulting in my aversion to losing an argument. This compassionate, food-loving, temperamental, girl/woman is who I am. And I love being me. No matter what my flaws or quirks I have to be the best me that I can be...only then can I be the best for those around me. I encourage you to look within. If you love what you see...embrace it and keep on doing you. And if you don't like what you see, keep on working on it and just know that you are God's WIP! (work in progress), and He will never be finished with you until He calls you home.
So in my husband's words whether "good or bad, right or wrong...we are who we are" and we need to own it and move forward in it to embrace all God has given us...living our lives to His glory.
JUST A PIECE OF THIS WRITER...C. MICHELLE RAMSEY
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